Devious Journal Entry

everyone come to me.bitches to me,whines to me,expecting an unlimited well of compassion,that i will magically make everything better.get pissed when i cant.but who do i go to? who do i have? all of those people are the most selfish,self centered bitches that can ever exist.they cant be bothered to help me,make my life easier,just make the bare minimal effort to ease my pain,give me a safe haven if only for a moment.so i drink,i cut myself,i contemplate suicide all the time.i dunno what else to do. i'm used and abandoned by every bitch. i dunno why its like this,but it is,always has,and i am coming to grips that it probably always will be(at best).you win,i have nothing left in me,not even hope